Of course diet motivation is not Just Point Less, where does it come from though?
I thought I would write about my diet motivation. I am writing this in part to find out what it is myself. This year has been pretty rough without a doubt. I’m not sure why I keep going, but I do. In a way I miss my comfort food, however when I am tempted to eat a big greasy pizza I just can’t even bring myself to do it. I am satisfied with a slice once in a while.
I guess I should begin at the beginning. My most recent weight loss journey began in March of this year. There were two major motivating factors that helped me to take action and lose weight.
In March I contacted someone who was once very important to me. I won’t go in to too much detail. She was one of my best friends and I’d have to say probably my first love. I never really told her that. Even when I lost a bunch of weight back then I still had that fat guy mentality. I’m not sure I had the intention of telling her that now; it has been so many years. I’m not some obsessed screwball. I just wanted to see her and know that she was doing well. We talked and were set to meet up after twelve years. It was incredible hearing her say that she was happy to hear from me and couldn’t wait to see me.
Then it hit me I looked in the mirror and saw just how fat I was. This is the point that I took a picture of myself without a shirt on as a reminder. You know It’s funny, when we first met I was 350 when she left I was 220. She never once held being fat against me. I still didn’t want her to see me this way.
I knew I had to do something. My aunt who was seventy five years old had just reached her goal weight after losing a considerable amount. I don’t recall the amount right now. That was enough for me this gave me the diet motivation I needed. If at 75 she could do it, I could do it at 32. I found a great fat burning diet and got started.
As I said, this year has been rough. I suffered a spinal injury that has changed my life. This really limited the amount of exercise I was capable of. I did not care. I pushed through. I still push through.
Then one day the phone calls stopped. She would not answer when I called. There was no explanation at all just silence. From I’ll call you tomorrow to nothing. This was a couple of months ago and that is her decision to make. I must say it left me reeling and confused. I fear I may have self sabotaged things to a certain extent. If you are overweight please take action now, don’t wait for situations like this.
That is not the point of this post though. Everyone goes through let downs and hard times. What is it that keeps them motivated to push through? In previous times I would have said screw it and ate 2 pounds of macaroni covered in ricotta and mozzarella and moved on to pizza and whatever else might make me feel better. This time is different and I don’t know why.
My desire to gorge on comfort foods is not even evident. I know sometimes I go back to that fat picture to help my diet motivation. My motivation has never completely disappeared though. I still wake up and am focused on losing more weight. I have even thought about training for a marathon once the weight is gone. If my back will let me that is.
Sorry I know this was a long rambling post. I’m just trying to figure out where my diet motivation comes from. I don’t know why something that would normally throw me into a feeding frenzy did not. I will say this I’m not happy but I am still motivated.
The solace I once found in food is gone and that is a good thing. Unfortunately it leaves me a bit lost at times. I rarely drink. I don’t do drugs. I enjoy exercising to an extent but the pain becomes unbearable every time. It is hard to find that comfort in anything. Nonetheless I still stay motivated to lose weight.